Reflection
There’s been a few things rolling around in my head for a week or so now, I’ve been thinking, digesting and reflecting.
Here’s one - I was chatting with Mom about going out to dinner, and I said to her you know Mom - I don’t actually go to dinner much anymore (shawarma not included, it’s basically health food). I couldn’t stop thinking about it for some reason, when did I change? I truly think that when we start a journey we make these big bold statements and declarations of hard and fast rules we’re going to stick to and this time damn it, it’s going to work. But, maybe the big bold statement is just deciding to choose yourself, your health and happiness - and that you’re worthy of whatever that change is for you. I don’t know how I found the courage to finally choose myself, I think it was mostly fear - but either way, I made the choice and never looked back. It was hard, I cried lots, had (many) days that I hated my choices, but I kept showing up. Day after day, I showed up for me. Somewhere along the way, I rewrote the story I had been living day after day without even realizing it. I found a true love for physical training and moving my body, I choose to fuel myself with good food (which includes chocolate some days), and after less than great days, I still got up and started again. I guess what I’m trying to say is, if you’re reading this and you can relate to any part of my story this is me telling you:
You are worth it, every single bit of you is worthy
Do it for you - whatever it is you’re struggling with, it needs to be for you. Ask for help if you need it, it takes a village.
Don’t quit - it’s not going to be sunshine and unicorns all the time, just stay the course. Rewriting your story and choosing different for yourself starts small and takes time. Also refer to #1
